again

I cant tell if its jealousy or if its neediness  I don't know why I keep going back to you always without you even asking  and of course without you even knowing  but i broke down today and told you how much I loved you y ou know already  Instead of celebrating the fact that I can feel again  I made a mistake in thinking I was safely sane.  I just want to sleep and forget that the last three days ever happen.  I want to move on but something keeps dragging me back  and I'm so fucking angry at this thing  and this thing is my anger.  GOD have I felt alive in the last few months but now I seem to just want to hide.